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I use to be someone who laughed and cried of joy. Now I laugh to distract everyone from the pain that’s in my eyes and now I cry tears of pain. I use to be somebody. I use to be somebody that was untouched by the world and all the wrong and hurt people could do to you. I use to be somebody who thought family was everything until I learned that even family will let you drown and then ask why you can’t swim. I use to be somebody who believed in love and fate until fate kissed another girl and touched her the same way he touched me later that night. I use to be somebody who went to bed to sleep but now I sleep to escape my own thought’s. I use to be somebody who enjoyed life and the people in it. That was until the world swallowed me whole and spit me back out and let the vultures that I called family and friend eat away at what was left of me. I use to be somebody who you could count on, now I can’t even count on myself. I use to be somebody who believed that there are good people in the world but there isn’t. I’ve learned that people are good until to you until they are done with you. I use to be somebody who tasted of laughter and warmth. I use to be somebody who sang in the shower. But now… now I’m somebody who tastes of heartache and pain. I’m somebody who goes to sleep at night because that’s the only time when I feel okay. I use to be somebody and now I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror. I use to be somebody who was happy but now I’m starting to think that I never tasted it in the first place.
Deeply Feeling Series // Via (promisesofamazing)
Sometimes I get so sad. So sad that I completely shut down. I stare blankly at the wall and it doesn’t matter what you say to me. Because in that moment I don’t exist.
(via confessionsofjustme)
